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I would like to share from a book “Suffering is My Friend, Not My Enemy” by Sharon Earnest.
John 12:24,  (NASB)

24 Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.

“It is not until a beautiful kernel of corn is buried and broken in the earth by death that its inner heart sprouts, producing hundreds of other seeds or kernels. And so it has always been, down through the history of plants, people and all of spiritual life.
God uses broken things. ”

It is clear from the Scriptures that God delights in the man or woman who has a broken and contrite heart. “The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart and saveth such of a contrite spirit” (Psalm 34:17). Some of our suffering is engineered to bring about brokenness. We must be delivered from our own self sufficiency and become completely dependent on the Lord.

Moses is a prime example of one who experienced brokenness. Raised in the king’s palace, we see Moses as a confident man, a man used to authority, and one who takes matters into his own hands. He sets about to deliver his people by his own strength which results in the murder of an Egyptian. Forced to flee from the wrath of Pharaoh, Moses ends up in the land of Midian where he tends sheep in a dry and barren wilderness.

God has to remove him from Pharaoh’s palace to bring about brokenness and prepare him to lead the Israelites in the wilderness. Forty years later when God appears to Moses in a burning bush, we find a changed man. He is no longer sell-confident, in fact his reply to God’s command is, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:11). Also, Moses tells the Lord that he is not eloquent and is slow of speech and tongue. All self-confidence and self-reliance has gone.

That is exactly what God needs in a leader.

Johannes Facius, a well-known writer, teacher and leader in intercessory prayer, tells how the Lord spoke to turn about brokenness after he went through three years of deep depression. He said the first thing the Lord spoke to him after bringing him out of a dark tunnel was the following: “Johannes, all along this way you have been walking I have been longing to extend to you my healing touch, but I could not do it until you had been utterly broken before me. For in the days to come I cannot use you the way I have planned and give you my anointing in an increasing measure unless I know that your spirit is broken and your heart is contrite. I will not entrust my power and the heavy anointing of my Spirit to anyone who has not been broken.”

In our Thursday night “lounge” group meetings, we had talked about a couple of leaders who had committed suicide. Never did I think that I would eventually read a book written by the President of Intercessors International (Johannes Facius), where he talked about how he had become suicidal in the midst of his ministry.

This is a leader who admittedly struggled so hard to stop himself from going to the kitchen to take a knife to kill himself, in the midst of depression and demonic oppression, whilst serving in the above-mentioned role.

His book entitled, “God can do it — without me!”

It seems that the Lord allows us to fail at times so that we learn to depend totally upon Him and have no confidence in ourselves. Johannes Facius says that we do not need more self-confidence as is often taught today, but a Christ-consciousness.

He says that the Lord allowed him to be humiliated in front of his friends around the world at a conference in Jerusalem. It was so that he would know in the future that it was only the Lord who worked through him. Only the Lord would get the glory.

We think of Peter who was self assured, and so sure that he would stand with Jesus in his trial; yet he denied him three times. What looked like a colossal failure in Peter’s life, God used this to bring about a brokenness and dependence upon the Lord.

As we read First and Second Peter, we no longer see the brash and bullish Peter. Instead we see a humble and broken man. He writes in his greeting in II Peter, “Simon Peter a bondservant and apostle of Jesus Christ” and later,

“God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time” (I Peter 5:5,6).

He also says, “Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to Him in well doing, as unto a faithful creator” (I Peter 4:19).

God had been teaching Sharon Earnest such brokenness. The first time she went to Colombia as a missionary, she was young, naive and untested. Her attitude was something like: “Here I am, Colombia!”

But God was saying, “Here I AM, Sharon. I am going to do a work in your life, a work that will bring about brokenness and a dependence upon me.”

Her first five years in Colombia were not as glamorous as she had envisioned. They were filled with hardships, adversity, misunderstandings, illnesses–one of which resulted in a serious operation–and a stint in the jungle. She did not understand why all that was happening. She only knew that her only choice was to look to the Lord.

What was one of the Lord’s objectives when He led the children of Israel through the wilderness? Earnest says it was to humble them, to make them dependent upon the Lord. In the past they had been dependent upon Egypt.

“And he humbled thee, and suffered thee to hunger, and fed thee with manna which thou knowest not, neither did your fathers know, that He might make thee know that man doth not live by bread only; but by every word that proceedeth from the mouth of the Lord doth man live” (Deut. 8:3).

What is God’s objective in our lives? Earnest says it is to humble us and make us dependent upon Him? She writes that she believes that when the Lord unrolls the canvas of our lives, we will thank Him for those times of disappointment, failure and adversity. We will see how God has used them to break us from self-confidence and pride.

Pride is deadly.

God resists the proud. Paul tells us that he was given a thorn in the flesh, lest he be exalted above measure by the abundance of revelations that he received. We do not know what the thorn was but we do know that Paul prayed that the thorn be taken away. The Lord answered him as He answers us many times: “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

Therefore, Paul says, “Most gladly therefore will I glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me” (2 Cor. 12:9). Paul went from a confident educated, esteemed man to one whose only confidence was in Christ Jesus. He put no confidence in his flesh.

Watchman Nee says that to understand the Lord’s purpose is to see very clearly that He is aiming at a single object, the breaking of the outward man. “If we will open our eyes to see that everything which comes into our lives can be meaningful and that the Lord has not wasted one thing, we can receive suffering with the right attitude. With the right attitude we can offer our suffering to the Lord that He might bring about the needed brokenness in our lives.”

We can yield to the disciplines of the Lord, as we are humbled and broken, as we glory in Christ Jesus and have no confidence in the flesh [Phil. 3:3].

There is a poem by a civil war soldier that goes as follows:

I asked God for strength that I might achieve.
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health that I might do great things.
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches that I might be happy.
I was given poverty that I might be wise.
I asked for power that I might have the praise of people.
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for but everything I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am among all people most richly blessed.

2 Corinthians 12:9,  (NASB)

And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast [a]about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

“We can only be strong in Him when we are weak in ourselves. Our weakness therefore is our greatest strength.”

adapted from: Sharon Earnest, “Suffering is My Friend, Not My Enemy” (2012)


Have a Blessed New Year!